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8/20/2019 Pascal Bruckner - Iubito, Eu Ma Micsorez

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IUBITO, EU MĂ MICŞOREZ!…

Traducere di i"#a $race%& de '(ru Mare)

Ti*u (ri+ia Mon petit mari, 2.

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Cuprins

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Annei,în amintirea zilei

când am dat de bărbăţel.

Bărbăţelul meu e*e ( (8er& de Dc3iue5Orice ae"&are cu 8er(ae reae e*e

a#(u* 0*1"8&*(are5

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Ta*a "i-a da* u #&r#a*,

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C1*ec $race% di ec(u a G6II-ea

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Nu i-( 8&cea, ici c&-"i 8a&5FC1*ec $race% di ec(u a GIG-ea

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Prolog

C1d LH( )i S(a+e au i*ra* 0 #ieric&, *(a*& u"ea a$(* $ra8a*& de di$ere3a (r de 0&3i"e, ciar dac& ace*a8ur*a *(curi )i *&*ea dre8* ca i*era I5 Şi a)a, a dre8*7(r#id, a#ia de-i 7eea 81& a u"&r5 Lucru 0& uderaa 8e i"ei ici 8e credici()ii care e 8i*eau du8&

c&r3ie de ru+&ciui, ici 8e $a"iia ui S(a+e5 Ş(cae ec(*ra*u, a 0ce8u*, dar de acu" e )*eree 0 $a3acai*&3i(r 7ii*(ruui +iere5 Era )i d(7ada deciderii8iri*uae a uei $e"ei care -a 0dr&+(*i* de u #&r#a*"ai cud dec1* ea c1d, 81& 0 %iua aceea, cu8urie eac&*uiau eac* i7er5 Mu3i 7edeau 0 a*a )i u e" #u

0 $1r)i*, u8eri(ri*a*ea "acui& $uee da*& 8e u)&

a$ar&5 Ia*& c& u #&r#a* "&ru3e e 8u*ea c&&*(ri cu (uria)&, ( $e"eie c(a8*& 8u*ea r17i u #&ia* cu "u* "ai*1&r5 Preudec&3ie *recu*e(r 7re"i e e7a8(rau5

Mai ae c1d (3u a7ea ( 3iu*& *are "1dr&5 LH( erau #&r#a* $ru"(, cu 8&ru e+ru da* 8e 8a*e, du8& "(dar("a*ic&5 Cu (cii ui de u a#a*ru ceu)iu, cu $a3a8reu+& )i #u%ee c&r(ae, era de" de S(a+e,8edid& crea*ur& 8a*ur(a&, ( ci8i*(are r()ca*&5

Trecerea a, 8e aeea ce*ra&, a #ra3u *a*&ui ei, cudec(*eu i"8u&*(r ac(8eri* de crii )i cu 8a*ee a*,#r(%a*, a8r(a8e +(, a *re%i* "ur"ure de ui"ire5 P1& )i8re(*u a $(* *u#ura* )i a *re#ui* & 0)i c(#(are 8ri7irie8e*ru a 8u*ea c(*iua u#a5 La dre8* 7(r#id, LH( uera ciar a*1* de cud5 U "e*ru )ai%eci )i )ae e, *(*u)i,((ra#i5 S(a+e *rica ar"(ia cu ace u "e*ru (8*%eci

a ei5 Ceea ce a"(ra u c(*ra* da* ai#ii5 Nu"ai c& (3ii*ra$(r"aer& di$ere3a 0 a*u, #a ciar 0 e" adi*ic3iei5

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LH( era e#u du8& e7a*a ui, ( c(8e)ea cu daruri,(ici*udie, a*e3ii5 'e(e#i* de credici(a&, ea a re%i*a*

0 a)a $e 0c1* iciuu di*re ei & u cede%e reci8r(ceid(ri3e, 8re*i%1d ca, 0ai*ea c&&*(riei, (+(da & De

$&cu*& du8& *(a*e u%a3ee5 Şi a)a -a 8er8ei* a $(c "ic ua de %ie5 9erici*& c& e*e cur*a*&, u i-a ac(rda* dec1*8rea "ici $a7(ruri 8e*ru a "ai 8u*ea D )i i"(rae, daruDcie* de 8r("i3&*(are 8e*ru a-i 0*re3ie Jac&ra iu#irii5 %iua c&&*(riei, du8& ce 8re(*u e-a adrea* 0*re#&rieri*uae, a"i*id (3i(r (#i+a3ia Ddei*&3ii )i a 8riiuuireci8r(c 0 ca% de #(a&, du8& ce e-a 8u 7eri+e*ee, LH(-a ridica* 8e 71r$uri 8e*ru a ( &ru*a 8e S(a+e5 Acea*a,e8u*1d & e a8ece de *ea"& & u 0i 8eeac& r(ciau+& )i a#& )i & u 0i cad& de 8e ca8 c(r(i3a de J(ri, a$(* e7(i*& & 0 a8uce de "i(c )i & 0 ridice 81& 0dre8*u +urii5 P&rea au a ca*e+(ria 8a& 0 "1iie ei,8ur )i i"8u 8u*id a ce*i"e*ri #ui de 8&"1*5E"(3i(a*& de d(7ada de *adre3e, 0*rea+a ai*e3& ai%#uci* 0 a8au%e5

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%&'s"l" (o)uni(n"

S-au "u*a* 0*r-u car*ier ce*ra a Pariuui, u de8ar*ede Ba*iia, 0*r-u a8ar*a"e* cu *era& de a a )aeeae*a, care d&dea 8re ( 8ia3e*& )i 0i &a & e #ucure de (8er8ec*i7& a"8&5 A7au -au 8&*i* 8&ri3ii ui S(a+e,c("ercia3i 8rice8u3i, care $&cuer& ce7a a7ere5 Cei d(i,care a#ia de 0"8iier& *rei%eci de ai, au $&cu*

0"8ru"u*uri a c1*e7a #&ci, cu d(#1%i c(7ea#ie5

S(a+e, c(8i uic, ur"ae "edicia, au+1d, ad(u&%eci )i (u& de ai, cirur+-*("a*((+ 8eciai%a* 0*rau"a*i"e ae "adi#uei5 a)*e8*area deciderii8r(8riuui ca#ie*, ucra 0 ce a uui c($ra*e, iar *ae*u)i a#ii*a*ea ei de a *ra*a $&r& durere *re%ier& re8ec*u*u*ur(r 8acie3i(r5 LH(, (r$a de a 8a*ru ai, *r&ie di#ure )i au*(are 8u#ice5 Pe S(a+e ( cu(cue a$acu*a*e, ude e 8eciai%ae 0 (r*(-ri(-ari+((+ie, 0

care, a r1du-i, ecea5 6eci&*a*ea dici8ie(r 0 care e8eciai%aer& 0i a8r(8ia 0c& )i "ai "u*5

Cu" de e decurcau cu di$ere3a de +a#ari* Cu" ei"3eau, (are Era u ucru care 0i 8ri7ea d(ar 8e ei5 Nu eraace*a u "(*i7 8e*ru a u "ai ac&*ui ce "ai 0J(ri*(rcu8u cu 8u*i3&5 9a8*u de a D a&*uri de ( ae"eeaairie 0J&c&ra*& 0i aducea ui LH( u"er(ae d(7e%i de

a*e3ie di 8ar*ea a*(r $e"ei, c&r(ra 0& u e d&dea ici(a*e3ie5 S*r&ucirea ui S(a+e "&*ura (rice 8(*e3ia&ri7ai*a*e5 Pe*ru e, care ici c& a7ea (ci 8e*ru a*ee,i+ura d(ri3& era & 0)i iu#eac& (3ia e+i*i"& )i & ($ecude%e de c1*e (ri acea*a 7(ia5 =1du c& a7(r*(uacea 0"8&r3ea 8a*u cu ( ae"eea $ru"ue3e 0i re7(*a 8e*(3i "acuii5 Nu"ai c& 8eriJ&rie (r 0i &au idi$ere3i 8ecei d(i (3i5 S*a*i*icie ara*& c& $e"eie 8re$er& #&r#a3ii

0a3i )i i+uri 8e ei5 S(a+e u $&cea 8ar*e di*re ee5 Pur)i i"8u, d(c*(ra)u ei 0i au+ea cu au8ra de "&ur&5 'ar)i e era (#i+a* & e "i)*e re8ede5 La d(i 8a)i ai ei, e

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$&cea *rei, ceea ce 0e"a, %iic, c1*e7a u*e de 8a)iu8i"e*ari 0 c(*u ui5 Cu" (3ia u 0ce*iea ici(da*&ri*"u, e (#i)uie & $u+& du8& ea u)(r +1$1id5 ueeeri, "ai ae c1d #ea ce7a, S(a+e 0 ua 8e LH( 8e

+euci, 0i %icea Leul meu (ri Armăsarul meu superb, 0+1dia 0 $e )i ci8, iar e e a#ad(a ca u 8u)*i, cu8ici(aree *r1e, r&ucidu-e, ru)ia* 8arc&5 P(a*e )iDidc& 0)i 8ierdue a*1* de de7re"e 8&ri3ii, LH( 7ia ($a"iie u"er(a& )i 0dr&+ea c(8iii "ai "u* dec1* (rice5Erau 8aiuea ui, ra3iuea ui de a D5 Sc1ce*ee uui (u-&cu*, 8ri7irea cad& a uui &81r*(c 0i au+au *(a*eu"ii3ee a care 0 u8uee ei*e3a5

A*1* de "are i-a $(* &ricia "ari*a&, 0c1*, eac* a(u& ui du8& c&&*(rie, S(a+e a adu 8e u"e u#&ie3e, Ba8*i*e, u 8u)*a %dra7& de 8a*ru i(+ra"e )i

u"&*a*e, cu (#raii ru"ei, care 3i8a c1* 0 3ieau 8&"1ii,de 8arc-ar D $(* *r1"#i3a de a ca%ar"&5 Ei #ie, da cu"aic&-a e"&a ca 8u*ere )i 7(u"! 'e (#icei, arcia 0i*ra$(r"& 8e #&r#a3i 0 Di3e eau*(ra*e, aruca3i a)a 0

$a3a uui "i*er care 0i de8&)e)*e5 ca%u (r, a $(* i7er5LH( a *r&i* a&*uri de (3ia a )i cee "ai "ici 8eri8e3ii aea)*erii, rei"3id ( da*& cu ea (7i*urie de 8ici(r ae$e*uuui, u$erid durerie ace(ra)i c(*rac3ii5 'e a*$e, dicau%a uui da* 8ecia a dia*&rii, *("acu ui e u"Jae*(* a*1* c1* 81*ecee e7e*ei5 Acu" 8&rea u #urdu$ (ri (a"$(r&5 Ti"8 de ( &8*&"1&, LH( u )i-a c&8a* (d(ru

di (ci5 L-au i*aa* 0*r-( ca"er& "ic&, *a8e*a*& 0 r(% )ia#a*ru, 0*r-u ea+& cu #adaci5 'eau8ra, ( #ar%& dee", a+&3a*& de u Dr de aur, e e+&a u)ure a cea "ai"ic& adiere5 Perdee +r(ae de cre*( a8&rau ("uu+aruui )i 0 07&uiau 0*r-( duce 8eu"#r&, a 7re"eaie*ei5 LH( e i"3ea a*1* de "1dru, 0c1* *re#uia &$ac& e$(r*uri 8e*ru a e a#3ie & u (8reac& *rec&*(rii8re a e decara Su* *a*&, 7& da3i ea"aF Şi-a ua*

*(3i 8rie*eii, 81& )i 8e cei "ai 0de8&r*a3i, 8e*ru a-iau3a, )i a 8u $(*(+raDie "icu3uui, cu 8iue%e, 8e *(3i8ere3ii ca#ie*uui5

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Pe*ru a-i &r#&*(ri a)*erea, 8&ri3ii au adu ( 8iicu3&*ric((r&, ea+r& cu +ri )i a#, 8e care au #(*e%a*-(Z(r%(e, 8er1d ca u 8e*e "u*& 7re"e #&ia*u & (c(idere *(7ar&)a ui de (ac&5 Ca u *a*& "(der ce era,

LH( 3iea & ia 8ar*e a *(a*e ac*i7i*&3ie di ca&, a)a c&e *re%ea (a8*ea 8e*ru a )*er+e a $ud #e#eu)u, aaruca raa*u, a- ci"#a, 0 *i"8 ce S(a+e, d(*a*& cua*1*a +eer(%i*a*e, 0i d&dea & u+& di *rei 0 *rei (re,&1du-)i (3u & adue u*i"ee 8ic&*uri de a8*e 8e care8ui)(ru, &*u, u e "ai 7(ia5 Pe*ru LH( i"ic u era "aiua7 dec1* & 0)i ai*e *radaDriu 0+era)5 Nici #aee, ici8(8(e3u c&c&iu, ici r1+1ieie u-i re8u+au5 8ri7i3aui Ba8*i*e, *(*u era "a+ic5 =1+ureie ui a7eau$ru"ue3ea uui 8(e" e8ic5 A#ia a)*e8*a ca S(a+e & 0)ire7i& du8& a)*ere 8e*ru a ( ua de a ca8&*5 'u8& ce are8ec*a* cu *ric*e3e 8eri(ada de i*erdic3ie, -a aruca*iar&)i 0 #ra3ee ei )i a 0&"13a*-( cu +eer(%i*a*e5Oriude ar D "er, (ric1* ar D $(* ceau, u ad(r"eau

0ai*ea u(r %dra7ee dr&+&ei5

La ( u& )i u"&*a*e du8& a)*erea ui Ba8*i*e, LH(, 0"#r&c1du-)i aia de ca*i$ea reia*&, cea 8e care ( 8ur*ac1d e ducea a 3ar&, a (#er7a* c& "1ecie e u+ier&81& a u"&*a*ea de+e*e(r, 0 *i"8 ce u"erii erau "aic&%u3i dec1* de (#icei5

Ia *e ui*&, du8& ce c& a" $&cu*-( 8e c("ad&, *(**re#uie & i-( duc 0a8(i cr(i*(ruui!

A ua* di )i$(ier ( a*& ai& )i -a *re%i* cu aceea)iur8ri%& e8&cu*&5 Şi acea*a 8&rea & D crecu* 8e*e(a8*e, "a)e*ee a*1r1d ca i)*e ci(*uri5 L-a a8uca*r1u5 Ce -( D 0*1"81d Cie-i (ac& $e*e Cu a*1* "air&u ( &-)i u"ea*& "1ecie, ( & 0)i 8u& u 8u(7er8e*ru a-)i "ai u"Ja u 8ic 8ie8*u )i u"erii5 'ar c1d &

0)i 0ca3e "(caiii e+ri, )i-a da* ea"a c& 0(*a 0 ei, iarde+e*ee de a 8ici(are u-i "ai au+eau 81& 0 71r$5

9uri(, a u"8u* +e*ee cu 1r*ie de %iar )i a ie)i* di ca&cu *raiu e*i"e* c& )i-a *ra 8e e aiee uui $ra*e"ai "are5

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Ciar dac& e (*&r1e & u ia 0 ea"& acea 8r(#e"&,u 8u*ea e7i*a *(*u)i ( au"i*& *u#urare5 A)a c& e"i*eai8(*e%e uee "ai e#ue)*i dec1* a*ee, cu" c& S(a+e,8e*ru a-i uca ( $ar&, 0i 0(cuie aiee cu a*ee,

ae"&&*(are, 0& ce7a "ai "ari5 'ar 8e*ru ce (ae"eea +u"& Nici(da*& d(ar u a 8r(D*a* deu8eri(ri*a*ea ei D%ic&5 La& c&- aeee 0 u"ee"ai"ei *(* ceea ce e*e "ic e*e $ru"(5 Re+i& aeu$e"i"uui, 0de8&r*ae di 7(ca#uaru ei cu7i*ee

piticanie, rahitic, gnom )i 0)i ru+a )i i7i*a3ii & re8ec*ere+ua5 Nu 7edea #ie ici "&car iuria ad"ii#i& Nomd’un petit bonhomme.

LH( -a deci & u 0i 8u& i"ic5 O & 7i& 7re"ea )i8e*ru a*a5 Nu"ai c&, d(u& %ie "ai *1r%iu, c1d e8re+&*eau & 8ece 0 7i%i*& a i)*e 8rie*ei, -a 8r(du ua* icide* erau 0 i$*u a c&rui 8ere*e di 8a*e eraac(8eri* de ( (+id&, c1d S(a+e a eca"a*

LH(, aiuri*ue, ai ui*a* & 03i 8ui 8a*(Di! Ude 3i-eca8u

LH( -a 0D(ra* u d(ar c& u ui*ae & e 0ca3e, darciar ad&u+ae 8a*(D(r cici ce*i"e*ri de *a8& de 8iee5

Pri7e)*e-*e- (+id&, ei8r&7i*ue! S(a+e, ur c& u* 0c&3a*!Şi-a &a* $ru*ea 0 8&"1* )i i-a ar&*a* 8ici(aree

0c&3a*e cu" crie a car*e cu 8a*(D e+ri, u*rui3i )i8re7&%u3i cu *&8i u8i"e*are5 'e c1d ( 0*1ie 8e

S(a+e, LH( u "ai ie)ea di 8a*(D 8e ic&ieri5 P1& )i8e 8a& 8ur*a i)*e )a8i +r()i ca i)*e $ri8*uri ar+e*iiee5Ciar )i 8a8ucii de ca& a7eau, 8e di&u*ru, ( du#ur& de8u*& care & 0 "ai 0a3e5 ci"#, S(a+e decre*ae (re+u& de e%drucia* ( u"#&*(rii c1d e $acedra+(*e! A7ea dre8*u & e 0ca3e a (c a#ia du8&5

A*uci, ce e-*1"8& a eca"a* S(a+e, u cu"7a"i-(i D 8u eu, di +re)ea&, 8a*(D cu *(curi cui

Nici 7(r#& de a)a ce7a5 Pi& de *ac*, S(a+e u 0i 8ur*aici(da*& c1d ie)ea cu LH(5 Şi-i re%er7ae d(ar 8e*ru

0*1irie cu 8rie*eee ei, c1d e c(c(3a 8e i)*e 8a*(D4/




care i-ar D da* a"e3ei (3uui ei5 'ar 0 eara aceea de 4.iuie u 8ur*a dec1* i)*e adae u*ra8a*e, cu *a8a de+r(i"ea uei $(i de 1r*ie, $(ar*e 8rac*ice 7ara5

Ce-ai 8&3i*, iu#i*ue Nu "ai 03ee+ i"ic5

Şi ui*e-a)a a (i* *ra+edia, $&r& & "ai *ri+e ăzea!, ca*(a*e *ra+ediie, u# u"#rea uui e0e"a* e7ei"e*5Seara -a a7u* ici are, ici 8i8er 8e*ru LH(, ciar dac&i"ei u a $&cu* 7re( (#er7a3ie e8&cu*&, cu ece83ia8u)*(aicei caei, iu8(r*a#i& )i e*1d (cuui ( ci8&,care i-a *(* da* *1rc(ae re8e*1d

Te-ai ci"#a*, & )*ii, *e-ai ci"#a*5 T(a*& u"ea e (#i)uie cu *a*ura ui, e7e*ua era

ir(i%a* $&r& r&u*a*e, cei "ai "u3i di*re 8rie*eii (r, carea7eau 8e*e u "e*ru (8*%eci, e "u3u"eau & 0i ad"ireui"i*(area (3ie r()ca*& c&reia u-i era dec1* u $e de

0(3i*(r de ra+u d(i, de 8arc& cie7a ar D 8u ua 1+&a*a ( +ira$& )i ( %e#r&5 O de81+eau, ( 8eriJau5 P1& aur"&, ciar c&- c&u*ae…

A d(ua %i a da* $u+a & 0)i cu"8ere 0c&3&"i*e(r*(8edic& 8ecia& 8e*ru adica8a3i, $(ar*e ic("(d&,dar care 0i ai+ura u ada( de (8*8re%ece ce*i"e*ri5 'e(#icei ae+ea 8a*(D u"&ru 8a*ru%eci, dar acu"71%&*(area -a ai+ura* c& u are cu" & 8(ar*e "ai "u*de *rei%eci )i (u&, dac& u cu"7a *rei%eci )i (8*5

Su*e3i i+ur& aide3i & "ai 7eriDc&" ( da*&5

P&rerea 71%&*(arei -a c(Dr"a*5 A $(* (7i* ca de ()*ire 0+r(%i*(are )i )i-a ua* ca8u 0 "1ii5 A" 8u 7re( 8r(*ie, a 0*re#a* $e"eia, 7-a" i+i* cu

ce7a "i 8are r&u5 'ac& 3ie3i ea8&ra*, eu 7& dau *rei%eci)i (u&, dar u 7(r D de(c c($(r*a#ii5 Pur )i i"8u ( &

0(*a3i 0 ei5 Rica3i & 7& $ac& #&*&*uri au & 7& uci3i+e%ee5

Cu "(ar*ea 0 uJe*, LH( a $(* e7(i* & 0)i "(diDce

c(*u"ee care a*1rau 8e e, & e cur*e%e "1ecie )icracii, & e *r1"*e%e +ueree, & "ai dea cici +&uri acurea )i & *r1+& ea*icu #(eri(r care 0i auecau 8e

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c&"&)i care 8&reau "ai de+ra#& ac(uri eere, de 7ar&, cu*ric(urie a"8e ca i)*e aa*e de #aie5 La er7iciu, u"eaa cre%u* c& 0cearc& & 0)i acud& u 0ce8u* de 0+r&)are,$a*e%ia acea*a a 0"#r&c&"i*ei ar+i e-a 8&ru* *u*ur(r de#u-+u*, a*$e 0c1* "ic)(rarea a $(* ua*& dre8*cre)*ere5 9iecare a7ea +ri& & u $ac& ici ce "ai "icc("e*ariu 0 8re%e3a ui, iar dicre3ia a*a 0 a8&a *eri#i5

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$&cea )"ecer, 0i aruca 8ri7iri (ri8ia*e, 0 a)e%a 8ec&uee (ae 8e*ru a- "ic)(ra 0c& )i "ai "u*5 i adrea

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'i*r-u a*, deD+ura*& de $urie, a 31)i* de 8e $(*(iu )ia 7ei* 0 $a3a ui5

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C1*e7a "iu*e "ai *1r%iu i*ra 0 8&rcue3u di $a3aa8ar*a"e*uui5 'e "ai #ie de ( u"&*a*e de a u "aiie)ie a aer5 La 0ce8u* a )(7&i*, (r#i* de u"i&, u$(ca*a8r(a8e5 Tre#uia & e (#i)uiac& cu (u &u *ru8,de(ca"da*& "er+1d e%i*a*, e7au1d +re)i* di*a3ee,

cre%1d ucrurie (ri "ai de8ar*e, (ri "ai a8r(a8e dec1*erau 0 reai*a*e5

S-a 8r&#u)i* 8e ( #ac&, )i-a ua* ca8u 0 "1ii )i a 0ce8u* & 81+& ca u c(8i, idi$ere* a *rec&*(rii care 08ri7eau cu a*e3ie, a 8icii care, 0(3i3i de #(e, 0 ar&*aucu de+e*u5 Ner7ii 0i *recuer& 8ri 8rea "u*e 0cerc&ri5Erau de(8(*ri7& acri"i de #ucurie )i de durere, era "(du

ui de a 8ue adi( uei 8eri(ade a 7ie3ii )i de a au*a ((u& ei*e3&5Pe c1d 0)i )*er+ea (cii, ( 8&&ric& -a a8r(8ia* 3(8&id5

Ari8a ei *1+&, ru8*&, a*1ra 0+reu1du-i 0ai*area5 Cu*(a*e a*ea 8iuia, c1*1d 8e d(u& (*e, "ereu aceea)i,u re$re ar"(i(5 LH( a recu(cu*, du8& c&8)(rue+ru, "icu 8i3i+(i 8e care 0 a7ae di +earee ci(rii5c& "ai a7ea e7(ie de e5 A 0*i ar&*&*(ru )i -a adu,

8ri u)(are "i)c&ri ae de+e*e(r, 0 8a"&5 Pa&rea ciri8ea 0cre%&*(are5 9(r"au a"1d(i u cu8u da* ai#ii e8a7a )i)(*(r(+u5 Şi-a 8i8&i* 8icu di #u%uar5 A7ea de*ui #ai8e*ru a 0+rii 8i3i+(iu a u 7e*eriar, a-)i cu"8&ra uc(*u" (u, eerie cura*&, 8e*ru a 0ciria ( ca"er& au (*e5 Tre#uiau a7a*e )i a8are3ee, dac& u 7(ia & Deare*a* 8e*ru 7a+a#(da5 deDi*i7, ici di8("a, ici

cu()*i3ee u i e uae i"ei, 0)i 7a reua 8r($eia )i 7ai7e*a ( 8(7e*e 8ri care & 0)i e8ice a#e3a5 'e 8id&,

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7a 8(7e*i cu" e "ic)(rae5 Oricu", i"ei u 0 7acrede5

)i 7a ur"&ri c(8iii de a ( *(* "ai "are de8&r*are5*r-ua di %iee ur"&*(are e 7a 0*(arce du8& 8iic&5

Be*e"u u ( 7a ua de a ca8&*5A 8(ri*-( a+ae 8e *r&%ie Pariuui, cu 8a&reaciri8i*(are 8e u"&r, ciu+uidu-i 3e&*ura u%a*& a aiei,c1r1id aur%i*(r5

Se i"3ea u)(r ca u $u+ a"i*idu-)i de e(r(cirie 8ecare e e7i*ae, +1didu-e a $ericirea 7ii*(are5 Şi-a8(i,ei*& ( "are ca*i*a*e de $e"ei $er"ec&*(are )i 0*re u"e*ru cici%eci )i u "e*ru )ai%eci )i cici!…

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9i*%+erad, Ricard Ma*e( )i "u3i a3ii5 Be%ie deea*eae ec(uui GG u au $&cu* ici ee ece83ie, de a LittleNemo a ui Xi(r MecaQ a +rabul cu cleti de aur a uier+H, $&r& a ui*a u"er(aee deee ai"a*e de du8&r&%#(i care re8re%i*& iec*e uria)e &cu*e du8& 7re(e8(%ie a*("ic&, #e#eu)i i"e)i care aduc "&"ici(r8&8ic&, adu3i "iia*uri%a3i, e+&a3i de crea*uri "iua*e

cu uri +eer()i5*r-( e8(c& 0 care ("eirea, du8& c1*e e au3&a7a3ii, u 0ce*ea%& & creac& 0 0&3i"e, Bărbăţelulmeu reia, di*r-u u+i (u *e"a "ic)(r&rii 8e care a""ai *ra*a*-( )i 0 +opilul di(in u $e*u, 8u a 8uc* cu8r(#e"ee u"ai*&3ii 0c& di u*er, re$u%& & e ac&,r&"11d 8e*ru *(*deaua 0 81*ecee "a"ei5 La r1du&u, +opilul di(in a $(* )i e +eera* de 8a+iie 6omnului

1ac, 8ri"u "eu r("a, 8(7e*ea uui #&r#a* u8uec(*ei*e(r 7aria3ii de +reu*a*e, *are, "&ri"e, 8e"&ur& ce *r&#&*ea a$a#e*u a i*era N, de a a)*ereF,"a"a a, (#er71d c& 8uiu re$u%& & "ai ia& 0 u"e, a*ri"i u +iec((+ 0 ad1curie ei 8re a c&u*arecaci*ra*u5 Nu"ai c&, ace*a di ur"&, acu du8& u(7ar, i-a 8re+&*i* ( a"#ucad& ("uui de )*ii3&,

0"8i+1du- 0 7e%ica uriar& a "a"ei, ude -a )i 0eca*5

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