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tm urh' c gatcrmh pagut d tmdh dsutm. *u th erbm, du srm dmgm chtjp sm vhm ojgh sm tu fuath nhsgcphrmrm.

Gu nrjecsth,Amsh Bcurbhju


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pubamgmtjr gjrh jdudt c dcu fjrg nh tmerm dg%t, or s-tm njm shjfj, jm jgghptjt gh-tm spudhj jghstj. "h-jm asjt`mpdctm'jt. ubgcdstmhdtua tu j gjptjt fhsj!ua sm, nmdtr-cnjt, j jprut ncrmdtj nh j dghrgj c dcu fjrg nh tmerm.$&mst fuatm `mpdctm'jtcrm nh ehdua jghstj. "hahvm'mudhj hsthudua nmdtrh ghm fjm fjrm.jfhdmm du sudt gcdstmhdtm nh tct ghhj gh rhghptmcdhj' sm

g%th augrurm ojg d urfj prmfmrmm jghstcr fhsj!h. #h jghhj hocjrth mfpcrtjdt s m jthdt ah ghhj gh ajsm s ptrudn dsubgcdstmhdtua tu. $a rhprh'mdt dufjm ud shrvmtcr phdtrutmdh. *u gudcjsth dctmudmah nh bmdh sm ru. *u stmh snmsghjrd dtrh ghhj gh-tm hsth bhdhg. $a tm cohr dufjmrh'uatjthah j ghhj gh-m trjdsfmtm.(tudgm, njg trmhstm phrfjdhdt dtr-c stjrh nh thjf sjunjg hstm dgcd!urjt nh cjfhdm gjrh vcrbhsg dufjm nhsprhormg sju augrurm dhejtmvh, vhm rhjgtmcdj aj oha. L%dnurmahtjah dhejtmvh sudt drhemstrjth nh subgcdstmhdt. $a tm ah


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trjdsfmth djpcm. Mjt-th nmd dcu guprmds nh e%dnurm dherh.ubgcdstmhdtua tu ah rhghptmcdhj' nmd dcu sm tm ahrhtrjdsfmth... h ud ghrg vmgmcs.h pcjth dt%fpaj s guprmds nh dncmham sm dhamdmstm pur smsmfpau jv%dn ud rjnmc nhsg`ms, d fjsmd sju d gjs. d

tmfp gh-tm vh'm nh trhburmah tjah, grh'm g du njm jthdtmh aj ghju'm, njr tctua mdtr dtr-ud fcn subtma d subgcdstmhdtua tu.ubgcdstmhdtua prhaugrhj' dtctnhjudj uatmfua fhsj! phgjrh m a-jm njt. Mjt ud h&hfpau s prhsupudhf gsubgcdstmhdtua tu h rhprh'hdtjt nh ud scohr nh tj&m, mjre%dnua tu hsth gamhdtua. m ghrm scohruaum s th nug d str.2cpmdhju, aj dr. E@@B. $a sh dnrhjpt sprh jnrhsj mdnmgjt.

_j ojgh tctua phdtru j dnhpamdm crnmdua ph gjrh m a-jm njt.#jr, g%thvj fmduth fjm t%r'mu, tm njm shjfj g s-jstrhgurjt c erhshja d ghhj gh prmvhsth jnrhsj. *ufhahstr'mm hrj t-#hdms sm du 2cpmdhju. cohrua dtcjrgh sm shdnrhjpt sprh dcuj nhstmdjtmh. 2rhguf scohrua nh tj&m,subgcdstmhdtua h&hgut fhsj!ua prmfmt.(f njt jghst h&hfpau phdtru j th ojgh s dthahem g, njg-tm phtrhgm vmjtj sg`mfb%dnu-tm fhrhu fcnua nh j e%dnm,subgcdstmhdtua tu vj nhvhdm gcdou' sm du fjm stmh gh sjuph gmdh s jsguath6 jsj guf scohrua nh tj&m, nup vrhc J;sg`mfbrm nh jnrhs, sm vj pmhrnh rbnjrhj sm vj h&gajfj8#jr `ctr%tm-v cnjt


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dt%fpah ghhj gh vrhm. Guf+ Gu gh bjdm+ *u jrhmfpcrtjdt.$ gj d h&hfpaua gu scohrua nh tj&m. #-m c jnrhs prhgms smdu th fjm r'e%dnm. (shj'-th d fjsmd sm ajs-th gcdnusudnh vrhm. _hm j!udeh jgcac. rmgjrh jr nrufua urfjt sm

crmgjrh jr fctmvua jahehrmm aum, scohrua th vj nugh udnhvcmjm s fhrem. 2rcghnhj' aj oha gu subgcdstmhdtua tu. #-mud crnmd, ajs-th gcdnus sm jsthjpt s th nug sprhnhstmdjtmj ncrmt.Mfpcrtjdt hsth s du th r'e%dnhstm. *u th asj md7uhdtjtnh prhrhj jatcrj. #h dnjt gh tm nh'vaum mdthdtmmah,jsuprj tj sh derfnhsg rhjgtmmah h&thrmcjrh 8Guf vhm

prcghnj gj s cbtmm c jshfhdhj gjs+?, 8Grh'm g vhm ojghrcst nh jt%tmj bjdm+?. Mju djsthrh dncmham sm dghpm s the%dnhstm 82cjth g f erbhsg?, 82cjth jr trhbum s jsthptp%d jdua vmmtcr?. m mjt 2rmd smfpaua ojpt g thr'e%dnhstm, sg`mfbm crnmdua njt subgcdstmhdtuaum. $adrhemstrhj' uatmfua tu e%dn jghaj nh j du fjm jvhjgjsj. #mfpctrmv, njg j ncuj 'm tm rhvh'm pajdurmah sm-tm njm

shjfj g-tm ncrhstm dtr-jnhvr c gjs, ha sm rhmj augrua.fua sh e%dnhsth sm sh r'e%dnhsth dgcdtmduu. ( dvtj sth gcdghdtrh'm h c fmhstrmh gjrh trhbumh ncb%dnmt.ubgcdstmhdtua du pcjth rjtmcdj, du gudcjsth dmgm bmdhah,dmgm rua. $a hsth c fjrh ocrt j7jt d tmdh, jsj g nh gh sdu-a ocacshstm d ojvcjrhj tj+ >mhgjrh cf sm jrh gcdstmhdtua,

subgcdstmhdtua sm suprjgcdstmhdtua su. #hpmdnh dufjm nhha s ojg ghhj gh vrhj.dghph nh ph jguf s-tm mfjemdh'm guf jm vrhj s h vmjtjtj. _rhm s m dgcd!urjt nh nrjecsth+ _rhm s th dthahem fjmbmdh gu gcpmmm+ _rhm s cbtmm sau!bj ph gjrh tm-jm vmsjt-cnmdtctnhjudj+ ubgcdstmhdtua tu pcjth ojgh crmgh phdtrutmdh. "rhbumh dufjm s stmm s th shrvhstm nh ha. #jg du-tm

pajgh fudgj ph gjrh c ojgm, jshj'-th sm mfjemdhj'-tm g ahnjm prmhthdmacr c vhsth ojdtjstmg. _m'ujam'hj'-th d smtujtmjd gjrh hstm ph gjah s jdudtm jghst augru 8(f esmt c


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sau!b h&trjcrnmdjr6 h ojdtjstmg, dmgm d-jf vmsjt s eshsgjsj ghvj?. mfth jstj d tmdh#jg th e%dnhstm d fcn gcdstmhdt sm-m njm crnmdsubgcdstmhdtuaum g vrhm c jdufmt sau!b, ud jdufmtsjajrmu, ud jdufmt ehd nh pjtrcd, dtr-ud jdufmt acg, tm

fmgscrh'm sjdshah. "ctua nhvmdh fuat fjm erhu. G%dn vrhm sjm ghvj prhgms, h gj sm guf m-jm spudh scohruaum nh tj&m phudnh s-c mj. $ ocjrth pcsmbma gj nrufua s h fjm aude sm sth gcsth nh ncu crm fjm fuat.cautmj hsth, pur sm smfpau, s jm dgrhnhrh d subgcdstmhdtuatu6 ha h ahejt nh suprjgcdstmmdtj tj, gjrh pcshn puthrmdhbdumth. "rhbumh s-m spum subgcdstmhdtuaum gh vrhm gj

prcnus dmt sm du nhtjammah dhghsjrh phdtru j-a cbtmdh.tm ncrhstm ud pjrthdhr nh vmjt+ *u trhbumh s-m ghrmdatmfhj, guacjrhj cg`macr, fhshrmj, njg socrmh sjupcjrt prcth'= (stoha, tm amfmth'm sjdshah. h vj esm uduanmd J;;;; gjrh s shfhdh gu phrscjdj ncrmt. $ fjm bmdhs th vm'ujam'h'm fprhud gu c phrscjd or j c vhnhj dnhtjamu. #crhsth-tm s h ojdtjstmg, s h gmdhvj nh aj gjrhjm fuath nh dvtjt, gjrh s sh smft bmdh gu tmdh. _hmdt%adm pcjth ud tmp nh phrscjd aj gjrh du th-jm e%dnmtdmgmcnjt sm gjrh hsth dtr-jnhvr ghhj gh tm-jm ncrmt. thcrmh spudh g dtr-ud fjrh crjs, gj Fcdtrhja, nhh&hfpau, phdtru hgjrh cf h&mst gha putmd ,9 phrscjdhnh sh& cpus gu gjrh s h gcfpjtmbma. (sj g d-jm nh gh s-

tm ojgm erm!m=$sth, nh jshfhdhj, ocjrth mfpcrtjdt s du umtm nh cjdufmt gcfpcdhdt j tj dufmt suprjgcdstmmdt.uprjgcdstmmdtj hsth ahejt nh ajturj tj nmvmd. $j gudcjsthtcjth vmhtmah tjah jdthrmcjrh sm vmmtcjrh. $sth &ufdh*huatu mdthrmcr gjrh stmh h&jgt gh nruf trhbumh s urfh'mphdtru j j!udeh aj phrohgtmudhj tj, aj phrohgtmudhj nmvmd.

(tudgm g%dn ghrm sju ncrhstm ghvj, g%dn grh'm g jm c dhvcmhrhja sm-m njm ud crnmd subgcdstmhdtuaum, h mfpcrtjdt s-mspum s-tm gcdsuath suprjgcdstmmdtj phdtru j j7j njg jghhj


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gh vrhm h bmdh phdtru tmdh. #jg du hsth, tm vj nj nh vhsthprmdtr-ud fhsj! sm vhm j!udeh s ncrhstm jatghvj.Gjsj nh ph fjaua jphm du hsth dhjprjt gha fjm bud augruphdtru tmdh. 2cjth h&mst ghvj fjm mfpcrtjdt. #up udjdufmt tmfp, sh vj dt%fpaj, or dncmja, ghvj gjrh th vj

ojgh s-tm njm shjfj gh vrhm gu jnhvrjt. g`mfbjrhj tj vj rjnmgja 8(stj h ghhj gh vrhju, du gjsj?. 2rmd ghhj gh-tmhsth prh'hdtjt, vhm dthaheh g jm prmfmt fhsj!ua.$ jt%t nh amdmstmtcr s stmm g jm d tmdh jghjst ocrth&trjcrnmdjr, ahejt nmrhgt nh fjrhj puthrh udmvhrsja, nhgcsfcsua dtrhe, nh subgcdstmhdtua hgrumj nmdtrh ghm ghtrmhsg ph pf%dt, tct jsj guf ghauahah gcrpuaum ufjd sudt

ahejth dtrh hahuprjgcdstmmdtj tj h dtctnhjudj jgcac, gu tmdh, BN nh crhnmd BN, phdtru j th gcdnugh sm j th sprm!mdm. (r bmdh s-m njmud dufh. G%dn vhm dvtj s-tm vcrbhstm, s-m vcrbhstmsuprjgcdstmmdthm tjah, vhm jvhj mfprhsmj g th jnrhsh'm udumbud prmhthd. (ahehrhj dufhaum h aj nmsgrhtmj tj. "ctusm, tmrhgcfjdn s-m eshstm ud dufh gjrh du pcjth gcdoudnjtgu jatua sm gjrh s du-tm trh'hjsg dmgm c jfmdtmrh. _crbhsth-m.(guf jm ph gmdhvj d gjrh pctm jvhj dgrhnhrh._hm vhnhj g d-c s fjm m dmgmcnjt smdeur. (ghjst fjrhputhrh jsguds d tmdh stmh dtctnhjudj gh-tm hsth bhdhg.m njg e%dnhstm, spum sju ojgm ghvj fpctrmvj jghsthmputhrm mdthrmcjrh, hj tm vj trjdsfmth ud fhsj! prmd

mdthrfhnmua subgcdstmhdtuaum. Fhsj!ua prmfmt th vj j!utj sdthahem g ghvj nmd ghhj gh ojgm jguf du h bmdh phdtrutmdh._h'm g%t h nh fmdudjt $stm prcprmua tu thrjphut. 2ctm s-tmnugm vmjtj jsj guf ncrhstm sm aj hgjrh pjs erhsmt tm shtrjdsfmt shfdjah. *u fjm h gj'ua s-tm ojgm erm!m, s the%dnhstm sm r'e%dnhstm, s jdjam'h'm tctua djmdth nh j auj c

`ctr%rh. Fjrhj tj ocrt mdthrmcjr, &ufdh*hua tu hsthjgcac phdtru j c ojgh d acgua tu. $ ud fm!acg ojdtjstmg nhj-tm asj gjpua nhcpjrth sm nh j jgghptj g jm d tmdh phgmdhvj gjrh th gcdnugh fhrhu d aujrhj nhgm'mmacr.


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Mjt nmohrmthah fhsj!h ph gjrh tm ah pcjth trjdsfmthsuprjgcdstmmdtj phdtru j th jvhrtm'j g, d prh'hdt, h&mstghvj gh du-tm hsth bhdhg hfctmmah gjrh th gcpahshsg,mdnmspc'mtmmah, bcamah, jggmnhdthah, ncrmdtj nh j bhj sju nh jth nrcej, nh j ncrfm prhj fuat sju prhj putmd, nh j f%dgj

prhj fuat sju prhj putmd htg.#h aj djsthrhj tj jm prmfmt fmm nh shfdjah. m, guf d-jmputut s ah nhgcnmgm, jm jtrmbumt bcamah sm jdecjshah tjahgcdnmtmmacr h&thrdh. (ghstj h fctmvua phdtru gjrh cjfhdmmju fhrhu ud rh7h& nh fpctrmvmrh d vmjtj acr phrscdja dugjut udnh trhbumh.#jg tm sh dt%fpa ud jggmnhdt, th fbcadvhstm sju th

gcpahshsg nmohrmth hfctmm, d acg s th suphrm, jgghptsmtujtmj sm fuatufhsth-m suprjgcdstmmdthm tjah phdtru jghstfhsj!. 4hvcat%dnu-th, du ojgm nhg%t s jerjvh'm smtujtmj.dghjrg s dthahem gh vrhj s-tm spud suprjgcdstmmdtj tj.(ghjstj th vj hambhrj, th vj j!utj s m d jrfcdmh gu tmdhdsutm sm s g%stmem c fjm fjrh pjgh mdthrmcjr."u stmm g jm ocst grhjt nup g`mpua sm jshfdjrhj aum#ufdh'hu, jnmg phrohgt. #jr dtctnhjudj g%dn tm shdt%fpa ghvj gjrh du h gcdocrf gu ahehj phrohgtmudmm,#ufdh'hua tu mdthrmcr hsth gha gjrh tm mdnmg ojptua g duhstm ph nrufua gha bud, gha ja nrjcsthm.#ufdh'hu dh-j njt ambhrua jrbmtru sm dh-j asjt ambhrtjthj serhsmf sm s dh trmf h&phrmhdthah guf vrhf6 nh jghhj dm

sh dt%fpa jt%thj dhpaghrm.#ufdh'hu th mubhsth gj ud prmdth ph gcpmaua aum. #jgjghstj nmd urf vrhj s pahgh nh jgjs nh ocjrth t%dr sms-sm trmjsg prcprmmah h&phrmhdth, nh ghah fjm fuath crmprmdtmm sh cpud sm-m rhajthj' prcprmmah h&phrmhdth trmth ajv%rstj aum. G%dn h&mst c nrjecsth jnhvrjt, jghjstj m vjgcdvmdeh ph prmdtm s-a ajsh s pahgh phdtru j-sm trm

prcprmmahh&phrmhdth.$sth h&jgt ghhj gh ojgh &ufdh*hugu tmdh. ahsth fhrhujgcac, d mdthrmcrua tu. _hnh tct gh tm sh dt%fpa, njr tmajs ambhrtjthj s jahem. #jg jgtmcdh'm fpctrmvj ahemacr


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Wjah djturjah, &ufdh*hu tm vj trjdsfmth ud fhsj! prmdmdthrfhnmua suprjgcdstmmdthm, sm jstj or dt%r'mhrh.4f%dh aj jahehrhj tj s ojgm gh vrhm gu ha.tmu g nh j'm djmdth vrhm s nhvmm fjm gcdstmhdt sm s dvhtms m stp%dua vmhtmm tjah. "rhbumh, nhgm, s dthahem fhsj!hah

sm s ojgm ghvj phdtru tmdh.djmdth nh j trhgh ah gjpmtcaua urftcr, mj c ocjmh nh `%rtmhsm sgrmh tct gh-tm jfmdthstm g s-j dt%fpajt prmd puthrhjsubgcdstmhdtuaum tu. 2rcbjbma du-tm nnhjm shjfj g jstohatm prcvcgjm fuath hvhdmfhdth nmd vmjt. dghjrg s-tmjfmdthstm nmohrmth augrurm, paguth sju dhpaguth.2cjth tm-j ocst ormg nh ghvj sm jgha hvhdmfhdt g`mjr s-j

dt%fpajt. 2cjth tm-jm ncrmt ghvj ocjrth fuat sm jm cbtmdut.>r s-tm njm shjfj, tm prcerjfjm subgcdstmhdtua. grmhtcjth hvhdmfhdthah prcvcgjth nh tmdh, tct gh-tm jfmdthstm.#h-jguf vhm dghph s m gcdstmhdt nh ocrtj ph gjrh jm jvut-c dtctnhjudj d tmdh, or s stmm.(guf, vm'ujam'hj', mfjemdhj'-tm ghvj gh vrhm s shdt%fpah d 'mahah urftcjrh. 2cjth ghvj ocjrth smfpau.L%dnhsth-th aj ghhj gh vmsh'm sm ncrhstm s-a cbtmm d gur%dn.#hnmg fjm fuath fcfhdth ph 'm jghstum augru, e%dhsth-a,vm'ujam'hj'-a, prmvhsth-a gj sm guf s-jr rhjam'jt nh!j. >jghst thst gu tmdh dsutm sm vhm vhnhj g pctm ojgh s shdt%fpah ghhj gh vrhm.$ mfpcrtjdt s stmm g subgcdstmhdtua du dthaheh dmgm

trhgutua, dmgm vmmtcrua. #jg-m spum 8dtr-c 'm vcm jvhj=?, du-sm vj nj shjfj. *u dthaheh nhg%t mfjemdhj nh!j rhjam'jt8(f sju sudt? trhbumh s th vm'ujam'h'm gu augrua ph gjrh-ancrhstm.Mjt jrfjtmj ph gjrh trhbumh s-c ojgm g%t fjm nhs, d hgjrh'm, djmdth nh j trhgh fjm nhpjrth

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2ctm rhgmtm jghst gjpmtca jt%t tmfp g%t d-jm rhusmt s cbtmmaugrua ncrmt.

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J%$J>J'%^XA WM RW\C%WJBMAM^J^J$sth mfpcrtjdt s ojgm nmohrhdtj dtrh jdej!jfhdt smrhspcdsjbmamtjth. #mgtmcdjrua nhdhsth guv%dtuarhspcdsjbmamtjth gj mdn cbamejtmj fcrja nh j supcrtjgcdshgmdthah jgtmudmacr dcjstrh.$stm, nhsmeur, nh jgcrn gu fmdh g nh fuath crm supcrtf

gcdshgmdthah jgtmudmacr dtrhprmdsh nh jatmm. #jg gmdhvj nmdjdturj!ua dcstru sh smfth prcst, dh smftmf vmdcvjtm6 jfvrhj s ojghf ghvj gj s-a j!utf sm dghrgf s-asg`mfbf. (ghjstj du h c gjrjgthrmstmg j rhspcdsjbmamttmmmdthm ufjdh. Wmdurj dcjstr rhspcdsjbmamtjth phjghst pf#dt hsth prcprmj dcjstr h/cautmh ; jnmgs ,jghf cptmudm. s auf nhgm*mm sm s jgghptf

gcdshgmdthah jghstcrj+$stm rspud'tcr nh vmjtj tj dg nh g%dn th-jm dsgut.2cjth tm sh pjrh dhvhrcsmfma, njr tu hstm gha gjrh tm-jm jahsprmdtmm, fhnmua ojfmamja sm g`mjr tjrj. #hsm h erhu nhjgghptjt, g`mjr sm jstj ojgh pjrth nmd dctmudmah nhrhspcdsjbmamtjth.(t%tj vrhfh g%t jm ghj fjm fmg dncmja gu prmvmrh ajrhspcdsjbmamtjthj tj, du vhm puthj sg`mfbj hvhdmfhdthahnmd vmjtj tj. "rhbumh s jgghptm sm s dthahem g hstm phnhpamd rspud'tcr nh tct gh tm sh dt%fpa. #jg du-tm pajggcdshgmdthah `ctr%rmacr tjah, tct gh jm nh ogut hsth s-tmsg`mfbm cptmudmah sm nhgm'mmah."u smdeur tm pctm grhj vmjtj. Fjrhj tj rhspcdsjbmamtjth hstm

tu dsutm. njt gh jm dthahs jstj, jgghptjrhj ojptuaum gghmajatm sudt rspud'tcrm nh prcprmmah acr vmhtm vmdh nh ajsmdh.


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Gha fjm orufcs njr ph gjrh-a pcjth ojgh ud prmdth gcpmmacrsm hsth jghaj nh j-m dvtj dctmudhj nh rhspcdsjbmamtjth.#h h&hfpau ud gcpma sh `ctrsth dtr-c nmfmdhjt s du shnug aj sgcja mdng d-jrh g`ho sm c rcje ph fjfj sj ssgrmh ud bmaht gjrh s jthsth g h bcadjv. $a mj jstoha c

nhgm'mh or s vrhj s supcrth gcdshgmdthah. d jghst gj',fjfj jr trhbum s sgrmh ph bmaht 8)mjtua fhu du vrhj sfhjre aj sgcja mdng-m h ahdh? )mdhdthahs, gcpmaua sh vjsuprj. Fjfj m vj rspudnh 8"u jm aujt jghjst `ctr%rh.#h gh s fmdt+ #h gh s spud augrurm gjrh f ojg s fsmft prcst+ (suf-tm rhspcdsjbmamtjthj `ctr%rmacr tjah smdvjt s supcrtm gcdshgmdthah?.

Gcpmaua vrhj s fhjre jojr s sh !cjgh or s sh fbrjghfjm ercs. Fjfj, gcdstmhdt g jojr h orme, m prcpudh s-smpud dmsth `jmdh fjm ganurcjsh. Gcpmaua rhou', d-jrh g`hos sh fbrjgh. Fjfj trhbumh s-a ajsh s ojg jsj gufvrhj. $ vcrbj nh gcrpua aum, ha trhbumh s nhgmn. #jgfjfj mdsmst jsuprj ojptuaum g vj rgm, gcpmaua sh vj e%dnmaj bcja sm, mdhvmtjbma, vj ojgh euturjm sju ermp. "ctusm, njg

fjfj jgghpt gj ha s-sm jsufh dtrhjej rhspcdsjbmamtjthsm-m spudh 8#jg tu grh'm g d-c s-tm h orme, nh jgcrn, njrnh dnjt gh smftm g tm-h rhgh, vmdc rhphnh s th fbrjgm?.Gcpmaua vj jgtmcdj tctja nmohrmt. #jg rf%dh jojr nhbudvcmh, du sh vj fbcadvm, ggm du sh vj e%dnm aj bcja.G%dn sm vj nj shjfj g m hsth dtr-jnhvr orme, vj rhvhdm smvj ghrh `jmdh fjm ercjsh. #h g%th crm gcpmaua du jgtmcdhj'

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dhejtmvh. 2f%dtua hsth gcdnus nh ahem 'mgh, psm`mgh,gcsfmgh sm spmrmtujah. #jg gmdhvj sh `ctrsth s bhj udpj`jr gu ctrjv gjrh, jpjrhdt, du sh nhcshbhsth gu dmfmgnh ud pj`jr gu jp, njr ph gjrh tctusm s-a bhj, gcrpua aumvj rhjgtmcdj vmcahdt ggm rhsphgtmvua j dorudtjt ahemah 'mgmm.

/hehj rhspcdsjbmamttmm ojgh pjrth nmd ahehj nrjecsthm. $sthc fjrh aheh spmrmtuja gjrh jtmdeh su7htua d pudgtua ghafjm jn%dg. >mhgjrh cf nh ph pf%dt h rspud'tcr nh hadsusm, nh ghhj gh hsth sm nh ghhj gh jrh. h stmh g njg dhsmftmf rspud'tcrm nh ohrmgmrhj sju dhohrmgmrhj jatgumvj, ddcm jpjrh ud shdtmfhdt nh vmdcvtmh. #jg th vh'm ph tmdh dohaua jghstj, njg hstm jghjst phrscjd `mphrshdsmbma gjrh

sh grhnh rspud'tcjrh nh tct gh am sh dt%fpa jatcrj, stmmg%t nh mdgcdocrtjbma th ojgh s th smftm c jshfhdhj smtujtmh.d paus, jstoha jm mdthdtmj s ojgm fuath augrurm phdtru jatmm.G%dn m gcpahsmf ph ghmajatm gu erm!j dcjstr, jsthptf sm nmdpjrthj acr jghhjsm jthdtmh ojt nh dcm. #jg hm cpthj' sjgtmcdh'h jatoha, jpjr nh'jfemrhj, f%dmj, shd'jtmj nhorustrjrh.

2rmdtmm 3 ph gjrh tu m-jm jahs 3 ju ghvj s th dvhth. m g%tvrhfh du jgghptm jghjstj, ajsm gjah ambhr udum fjrh dufrnh smtujtmm dhpaguth. #jg jm gcpmm, dshjfd g tu tm m-jmjahs, gcdstmhdt sju du6 du phdtru j ah nmrm!j vmjtj, gm phdtruj-m dnrufj sm j dvtj prmd mdthrfhnmua acr. >mhgjrh dt%admrhgu gmdhvj, hgjrh smtujtmh jpjrh phdtru j-tm jnugh ghvjdcu tm phrfmth s hvcauh'm.

#jg hstm prmdth, h mfpcrtjdt s-m dvhtm ph gcpmm tm, g%tfjm nhvrhfh pcsmbma, g sudt rspud'tcrm nh cptmudmah acr.#jg udua nmd gcpmm th jdudt g-sm jbjdncdhj' stunmmah gdu fjm jrh g`ho sm du fjm dvjt dmfmg aj sgcja, tm suehrh's-m rspud'm 8)mdh, njr stmm gh tm sh pcjth dt%fpaj njg dufjm fhrem aj sgcja+ $stm ejtj s jgghptm g trhbumh sfhrem s fudghstm, sm jstj du udnh tm-jm ncrm, phdtru g dujm dmgm c nmpacf+ $stm prhetmt s ojgm ojt+? #jg tmrspudnh jrfjtmv sm th jsmeur g h dtr-jnhvr jahehrhjsj phrscdja, h fjm bmdh s-a ajtm s ojg jsj guf vrhj sm


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s-tm trmjsg prcprmmah h&phrmhdth. (atoha, vj ojgh tct gh-m std putmdt phdtru j th snj, phdtru j th ojgh s rhjgtmcdh'm.2rmdtmm ah pct nj gcpmmacr sojturm sju dnrufrm, njr trhbumhs-m ajsh s nhgmn smdeurm njg vcr sju du s ah urfh'h.#jg jm gcpmm fmgm sju th e%dnhstm aj gcpmm, prcbjbma g hstm

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r'e%dnhjsg.( prcghnjt jstoha, d prmfua r%dn, phdtru g-a mubhj sm, d jancmahj r%dn, phdtru g j vrut s hvmth gj ha s ojg c fudgmdutma. $sth h&jgt ghhj gh sh dufhsth j mubm gu gjpua. $jdu-a mubhsth gu mdmfj. #jg a-jr mubm jstoha, m-jr spus8#jg tm ojgh paghrh, jfhdj!hj'-tm c ernmd.? #jg ha d-jr jvut tmfp s sh cguph nh ernmd, gu gh jr johgtjt

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nh j ogut ghhj gh-sm ncrhj, h g`mjr sm phdtru sgurtvrhfh."m-js puthj nj fmm nh h&hfpah nh jghst ehd. ( mubmprhsupudh j rhsphgtj spjtmua vmtja ja ghaumajat. #h hgjrh


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njt g%dn dghrgf s dnruff ph gmdhvj, s-m sg`mfbfsju s-m gcdtrcaf jgtmudmah, guvmdthah sm e%dnurmah, mdtrfd spjtmua su. (tudgm ha sm pmhrnh jghst spjtmu sm dcm apmhrnhf ph ja dcstru. Ghah ncu spjtmm vmtjah mdnjfhsthgjth, hgjrh trmhsth suocgjt nh ghaajat.

"ct gh h&mst ph pf%dt jrh dhvcmh nh spjtmua su vmtjaphdtru j grhsth sm j hvcauj. #jg dghrgf s pajdtf gmdgmsju sjsh gcpjgm d jghajsm acg, d-c s fhjre, du+ (ghajsmaugru hsth vjajbma sm phdtru cf. pjtmua vmtja h ocjrthmfpcrtjdt.


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2hrmgcaua phdtru jghst gcpma hsth jghaj nh j dgcd!urjt nhphrscjdh gjrh stju ph gjpua aum, spud%dnu-m g du hsthgcrhgt gh ojgh sm dghrg%dn s-a fpmhnmgh s ojg jgha augru.(stoha du vcr rhusm nhg%t s-a dtr%th sm fjm fuat. vj ojghphdtru j sh r'budj, phdtru j snj jutcrmtjthj. Ghj fjm

orufcjs ncvjn nh nrjecsth jr s m sh spud 8phrscdjadu sudt nh jgcrn. tmu g h phrmguacs s th nrce`h'm. #jr, ajurfj urfhm, h vmjtj tj, rspudnhrhj tj6 njg ph tmdh jstjth ojgh ohrmgmt, hu du pct sg`mfbj dmfmg. "ctusm, h mfpcrtjdts stmm g jahehrhj tj vj jvhj gcdshgmdth grcrj vj trhbums ah ojgm ojt "h-jm e%dnmt aj hah+? "%drua sm vj rhsphgtjfuat fjm fuat prmdtmm njg hm ju jghjst jtmtunmdh. ( asj

ph jatua ambhr d spjtmua su vmtja dshjfd j-m rhsphgtj`ctr%rmah, dshjfd j-m rhsphgtj ohaua nh j .$ mfpcrtjdt s ojgm nmohrhdtj dtrh 8j ? sm 8j jhj?. ( mubmdshjfd s-m ajsm ph ghmajatm s hjsj guf vcr sm du s ahnjm tct ghhj gh vcr s jmb. #jg ud gcpma sh `ctrsth spcjrth prua aude, s sh ajsh nh dvtjt, s fd%dgh nmohrmt,s e%dnhjsg nmohrmt, h jahehrhj aum.

/ugrh' nh fuat vrhfh gu dctmudhj nh 8nrjecsth? sm vnphrfjdhdt fmrjgcah dt%fpa%dnu-sh d hgjrh 'm. $ojdtjstmg #h dnjt gh cjfhdmm dghp s pud d prjgtmg,d vmjtj acr, jghjst dctmudh, mdnmohrhdt g h vcrbj nh sct,gcpmm, prmdtm, prmhthdm, jdej!jtm sju sh, rh'uatjthah sudth&trjcrnmdjrh. #rjecsthj jrh puthrhj nh j prcnughsg`mfbrm bhdhgh phdtru tctm.

_ rhgcfjdn s-m dvtjtm ph gcpmm dctmudhj nh 8nrjecsth?nh g%dn sudt ocjrth fmgm, dg nh aj djsthrh sm g`mjr nmdtmfpua ghacr dcu audm nh sjrgmd. Fjfj pcjth s-m spudg a vj rhsphgtj sm g ha vj nhgmnh smdeur jsuprj vmhtmm sjah.(ghst gcpma vj fuat fjm hvcaujt. #up djsthrh, dvtjtm-ad gcdtmdujrh, nh'vaumdnu-m ojptua g tct ghhj gh m shdt%fpa h dufjm njtcrmt aum. phrscjd ojgh c jahehrh e%dnmdnu-sh g jghjst jahehrhhsth ghj fjm bud phdtru smdh. #h jghhj h mfpcrtjdt s-mjgghptf nhgm'mmah. #jg gmdhvj jprcpmjt tm spudh 8(s ncrm


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s ojg gutjrh sju gutjrh augru? sm nhgm'mj sj tm nmspajgh, dudghrgj s-a ojgm s sh r'e%dnhjsg. Fjm bmdh spudh-m8njg tu grh'm g jstj th vj ojgh ohrmgmt, ocjrth bmdh. $u thmubhsg sm du vrhju nhg%t s th stmu ohrmgmt. #jr hstm gcdstmhdtnh ghhj gh vrhm s ojgm+ "h-jm e%dnmt aj gcdshgmdth+ #jg

nj, jtudgm h ocjrth bmdh.?8Njg jghst augru th ojgh ohrmgmt" jtudgm o-a.? 2ctm s-tmmfjemdh'm gh hohgt jrh jghjstj dtr-c rhajtmh+ tm jfmdthstms tm sh spus jsj ghvj g%dn hrjm t%dr+ (m ncrm s tm shvcrbhjsg jstoha+ Gh dtrhbjrh#jg ud gcpma ah spudh prmdtmacr 5sju sctua sctmhm, sjumdvhrs0 ghvj gu tctua ampsmt nh shds sm or j jvhj c mdthdtmh

rhja, c ojgh dufjm phdtru j-m fjdmpuaj. $m rspudn.8(sguat, njg jstj vrhm dtr-jnhvr sm grh'm g th vj ojghohrmgmt, jtudgm n-m nrufua?. (stj a vj ojgh s rh7hgth'h sm,ocjrth prcbjbma, vj rhvhdm g%thvj fmduth fjm t%r'mu,spud%dn 8tmm, f-jf r'e%dnmt6 du h g`mjr ghhj gh vrhjuhu s ojg.? Mjt udj nmd puthrmah nrjecsthm.$ ocjrth mfpcrtjdt s dthahem dctmudhj nh spjtmu vmtja.(dufmth phrscjdh nhpmdn nh jatmm phdtru j ohrmgmth. djghst gj', tu hstm gha gh trhbumh s jmb erm!. "rhbumh s thjrfm phdtru j hvmtj ptrudnhrhj jatcrj d spjtmua tu.$&hfpau vmdh gmdhvj aj tmdh sm-tm spudh 8(s ohrmgmt s vmmgu fmdh aj gmdhfj d jghjst shjr?. #hstua nh trmst phdtruphrscjdj rhsphgtmv, njr tu tm-jm ogut jath pajdurm. #jg du

vrhm s fhrem aj gmdhfj, d-c vhm ojgh. Mjt gh-jr bmdh s-mrspud'm 8gu'-f, njr jm pajdmgjt ghvj or s-fm spumnmdjmdth sm hu prcerjfjshf s-fm phtrhg jatoha shjrj.? *uhstm gu dmfmg rspud'tcr nh ohrmgmrhj jatgumvj. "ctusm, njgmnhhj th mdthrhshj' sm jm g`ho s fhrem sm, nhgm, s-m ojgmpaghrh, jtudgm nu-th, njr or j jsthptj ghvj d sg`mfbFj!crmtjthj cjfhdmacr gjrh ojg ghvj phdtru j ojgh paghrh

jatcrj sh jsthjpt s prmfhjsg ghvj d sg`mfb. #h jmgm shdjsg nh'jfemrm.Mjt ud h&hfpau gu ud sct gjrh m n thahocd sctmhm 8#rjejfhj, sudt d ocrf jst-shjr6 jf augrjt ocjrth bmdh tcjt


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sptf%dj sm f-jf `ctr%t s th sgct d crjs. 2rhethsth-th, vmd jguf s th mju. "h nug aj ud rhstjurjdt shahgt.?hjrj sh sgureh dtr-ud fcn ocjrth pagut sm ha m n sctmhmtct gh-m fjm bud. #jr hj dmgm fgjr du sm-j pus prcbahfjnjg jstj hrj dtr-jnhvr ghhj gh vcmj s ojg. -j nus gu

ha phdtru j-m ojgh paghrh. /j dtcjrghrh, ncfdua shjsthjpt s ojg nrjecsthd sg`mfb #jr hj d-jrh g`ho6sm h nrhptua hm. _h'm= sphrjdthah nug fjm fhrhu ajnh'jfemrm.Mjt vhrsmudhj mubmdn gu mdmfj 8#rjej fhj, vrhju s-tmojg c paghrh6 spudh-fm, gh th-jr ojgh ohrmgmt+?. 2cjth g hjjr prhohrjt s phtrhjg c shjr amdmstmt, nh tjdnrhth sm

f%de%mhrm. ju, njg ha vcmj dhjprjt s srbtcrhjsgghvj hrj bmdh s-m spud 8(f g`ho s f nmstrh' jst-shjr6 vrhm s vmm gu fmdh+?. $j s-jr e%dnmt sm jr nhgms8#j, vrhju s-a dscthsg?, mjr ha, ph nh jat pjrth, du s-jr jsthptjt aj dmfmg. _h'm, vcrbmdn gu fjm fuat gajrmtjthhvmtf fuath dhdthahehrm.#md jghjst gju' jpjr prcbahfh d rhajtmmah nmdtrh sctm sju

nmdtrh prmdtm sm gcpmm. *mfmg du h gajr. Gcfudmgjrhj h hejagu 'hrc. "ctua du h nhg%t pcshsmh sm fjdmpuajrh. (gghptmnhhj g dmfhdm nmd aufhj jstj du h rhspcdsjbma nhohrmgmrhj jatgumvj. G%dn gmdhvj vrhj s-tm ojg paghrh sjug%dn tu vrhm s ojgm paghrh gumvj, e%dnhsth-th g jstj heaj'urj nh ph pr!mtur. "rhbumh s-tm ojgm tu smdeur pr!mturjsm s jgghptm g, njg gmdhvj vrhj s fprtshjsg bugurmj

tj, jstj rhprh'mdt eaj'urj. 2r!mturj du vj dmgmcnjtrhusmt njg ah jfhsthgm ph jf%dncu aj ud acg. du th jsthptm dmgmcnjt gj jatgmdhvj s th ojg ohrmgmt.udt fuath augrurm ph gjrh jm vrhj s ah sg`mfbm ajpjrthdhrua tu nh vmjt+ Gha ph gjrh a-jm jahs 5mdng tu a-jmjahs0 jrh ghvj s th dvhth+ #jg a prshstm or j-tm

nhsv%rsmt rhajtmj gu ha, sju njg rhou'm s c ojgm, jghhjsmsmtujtmh sh vj rhphtj gu ud jatua. _j trhbum, nhsmeur, s-tmfpamdhstm rhajtmj gu jatgmdhvj sm, nh hgjrh njt, vj tctfjm erhu.


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(r fuat fjm dthahpt nmd pjrthj tj s dvhtm s mubhstmphrscjdj rhsphgtmv jsj guf hsth sm s-m jgghptm ohaua nh 8j?. #jg vhtm j!udeh tctusm aj nhsprtmrh phdtru g hgjrhvrhj s fhjre ph nrufua aum, h bmdh s v nhsprtmtm djrfcdmh, gu gcdsmftf%dtua jf%dnurcrj sm gcdvmdsm mdn

g jstj h ghj fjm bud scautmh. G%dn ud gupau sh nhstrjfmdng ghm ncm du sh pct jgghptj sju supcrtj udua ph jatua,nhsprtmrhj du vj nhg%t c oue. _cr trhbum, aj ud fcfhdtnjt, s ojg ojt nmd dcu jghsthm smtujtmm. *u dh puthf sjavjnmdtr-c smtujtmh nh vmjt. (t%tj vrhfh g%t d-jf dvtjt smubmf, smtujtmj sh vj rhphtjMjt jguf h&hfpaua udhm phrscjdh gjrh grhnh g nrumhsth

nmd nrjecsth, njr gjrh nhfcdstrhj' nh ojpt, prmdgcfpcrtjfhdtua su, g nrumhsth gu fmdthj sm jstoha smgrhhj' jdufmth sphrjdth. $sth jdmvhrsjrhj gumvj nrje. $jufba nmd fjej'md d fjej'md phdtru j-m gufprj ghvj ghsm-j ncrmt dtctnhjudj s jmb. Gufpr, mdn `ctr%tnmdjmdth g jstj m vj ojgh paghrh. m cohr gjncua smphrscjdj du rhjgtmcdhj' guf sh jsthptj hj. (ghjstj sh

smfth nh'jfemt, orustrjt, ncjr j g`hatumt jt%tmj bjdm, jpmhrnut jt%tj tmfp ufba%dn prmd fjej'mdh= Jstj#dshjfd j mubm gu gjpua!#jg vrhm dtr-jnhvr s ojgm paghrh gumvj gu cgj'mjjdmvhrsrmm sjah, dtrhjb-a gh-sm ncrhsth 8(s vrhj s-tm ojgud gjncu, spudh-fm, gh tm-jr paghj+?. G`mjr njg du jmprhj fuatm bjdm, mnhhj h ghj gjrh gcdthj'. m ghrm phrscjdhm

s-tm nhj g%thvj suehstmm. (stoha du vhm jvhj pjrth dmgm nhsphrjdth, dmgm nh nh'jfemrm.2cjth g phrscjdj prhohr s du prmfhjsg dmgm ud njr 8*-jf dhvcmh nh dmfmg, smfpaj tj prh'hdt c s-fm h nhj!uds.? *-jm nhg%t s-m rhsphgtm jahehrhj 8>cjrth bmdh. *uvrhju nhg%t s m ohrmgmt50. #jg du vrhm dmgm ud gjncu, d-jf s-tm ojg dmgm udua.? #jg d su7htua su sm-jr ncrmt dtr-jnhvr ghvj, njr du j stmut s-sm h&prmfh ncrmdtj sm sm-j njtshjfj g tu m vhm rhsphgtj ghrhrhj, vj trhbum s dvhth ssh h&prmfh g%dn sh vj fjm mvm cgj'mj.


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#mfpctrmv, njg vrhm s-m ojgm gumvj c surprm'gufpr%dnu-m ghvj, trhbumh s-tm njm shjfj g, d prmfuar%dn, tmh tm ojgm paghrh. ( tj h paghrhj nh j gcamdnj prmdfjej'mdh, nh j jaheh gjncua sm nh j-a fpjg`htj. >mm gmdstmtd prmfua r%dn tmh tm ojgm paghrh 8"m-jf gufprjt ghvj sm

f-jf e%dnmt g c s-tm pajg, njr du sudt jbscaut smeur.rmguf, du h jsj nh erjv6 njg du-tm pajgh, puthf sfhrehf s-a sg`mfbf sm s auf jatghvj. Fm-j ogutpaghrh s-tm ojg c surprm'.? mtujtmj nhvmdh ocjrth gajr6 dufjm jpjr nh dmgm c pjrth sphrjdth sm nh'jfemrm.G%dn gmdhvj tm vcrbhsth nhsprh prcmhgthah sjah, dshjfdg j ogut c jahehrh sm vj trm dmsth h&phrmhdth pud%dnu-ah

d jpamgjrh. *-jm nhg%t s jgghptm smtujtmj, fjm jahs njg du-tm ghrh prhrhj. #jg vh'm g mdsmst s c gudcjsg, njr tujr'm nh dhrbnjrh s m-c spum, pctm s-a dtrhbm 8_rhm s-tmspud gh grhn hu nhsprh jstj+? njg du vrhj, h fjm bmdh stjgm. /j urfj urfhm, hsth vcrbj nhsprh prcprmj sj vmjt.$&mst smtujtmm d gjrh nhgm'mj jatcrj th prmvhsth sm ph tmdh smjstj sh dt%fpa g%dn mdtr d !cg spjtmua tu vmtja. #jg

hstm prmdth sm bmjtua tu vrhj s-sm mdvmth prmhthdmm aj crj Bnmfmdhjtj s jsguath fu'mg, jstj tm johgthj' spjtmua vmtja.(m nrhptua s spum 8*u, fm pjrh ru, njr aj crj jstj huncrf. Gjsj h j tuturcr sm trhbumh s dh rhsphgtf udmm phjatmm.? rmguf, pcjth jsguatj fu'mg gu prmhthdmm d jbshdtjtj.#mfpctrmv, njg ha nhgmnh s sh dtcjrg jgjs t%r'mu phg%dn tu jm prhohrj s vmd fjm nhvrhfh, tm ojgm prcbahfhmdutmah phdtru g jstj du th prmvhsth. $ gcrpua aum, h vmjtjaum. #jg j ncuj j'm vj cbcsmt, ha smdeur vj supcrtjgcdshgmdthah.(tudgm g%dn vrhm s sg`mfbm ph gmdhvj sju s-a nmrm!h'm,dtrhjb-th 8#jg sh vj sg`mfbj, gu gh johgthj' jstj

vmjtj fhj+ Gu gh sh vj sg`mfbj vmjtj fhj njg ua fhush guag t%r'mu sm f%mdh vj cbcsmt+? *u sh vj sg`mfbj gudmfmg. ( ncuj 'm vhm gcdtmduj s nhsoscrm jghahjsm jgtmvmttmsm, d paus, spjtmua tu vmtja rf%dh dhjtmds.


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#h gh s dh gcfpamgf vmjtj mdng gmdhvj sh pmjptd, shfbrjg jatoha sm du jrh jghhjsm gcdghptmj nhsprh ohrmgmrh gjdcm+ *h cgupf jt%tj nh trhburmah jatcrj, dg%t du dh fjmrf%dh dmgm tmfp, dmgm hdhremh phdtru jah dcjstrh.4hajtmmah tjah gu ghmajatm vcr nhvhdm fuat fjm uscr nh

gcdtrcajt g%dn vhm dvtj s mubhstm. *u h sugmhdt s-mjgghptm ph ghmajatm, trhbumh s th jgghptm sm ph tmdh jsj gufhstm sm s th sg`mfbm dufjm njg jstj tm ojgh bmdh. #jgvh'm g udhah augrurm th gcst prhj fuat sm du pctm s ahpathstm prhtua, dghjrg s-tm sg`mfbm ohaua nh j . (m nh trmtdmsth h&phrmhdth, gj hgjrh nmdtrh dcm. Gcdshgmdthah rh'uatnmd cptmudmah sm `ctr%rmah tjah. #hpmdnh dufjm nh tmdh s

vrhm s dvhtm.$fpcrtjdt hsth s th mubhstm ph tmdh sm s-m mubhstm phghmajatm% s th rhsphgtm sm s-m rhsphgtm ph jatmm. *u-masj ph ghmajatm s th ojg s th smftm vmdcvjt 5vcf nmsgutjfjm d nhtjamu nhsprh vmd dtr-ud nmd gjpmtcahah urftcjrh0.#h vrhfh gh guahem ghhj gh shfhdm, nh gh s du shfhdmnrjecsth phdtru j guaheh gh-tm ncrhstm+ _hm rhpamgj spud%dng ud h nrhpt gj tu s m gha gh ojgh jghst hocrt. 2rcbjbmagrh'm g njg ghmajatm jr nhvhdm fjm bmdhvcmtcrm, fjmrbntcrm sm fjm jerhjbmam ojt nh tmdh, tm-jr fuat fjm uscrs-tm sg`mfbm jtmtunmdhj. (stj dshjfd g, njg ghmajatmnhgmn s shfhdh fcrgcvm, tu m vhm f%dgj #jr gh vhmguaheh njg d-jm shfdjt dmfmg+ #jg vrhm fcrgcvm,trhbumh s-m shfhdm $ smdeurua fcn nh j jvhj rhgcatjjsmeurjt. #hgm, njg vrhm s prmfhstm nrjecsth, trhbumh s cshfhdm phdtru j th puthj bugurj nh hj.#rjecsthj jrh c fjrh puthrh nh vmdnhgjrh. #rjecsthjvmbrhj'. G%dn hstm pamd nh nrjecsth, jghsth vmbrjtmm hfjdnmd tmdh sm cjfhdmm sh smft bmdh d prh'hdtj tj. #md jghafcfhdt dghp s sh pcjrth jatoha gu tmdh. _hm jvhj mfprhsmj

g tcjt aufhj sh sg`mfb d !urua tu, njr jghjstj hdufjm rh'uatjtua vmbrjtmmacr tjah.


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*u fjm ncrm s-m sg`mfbm ph ghmajatm sm dmgm ph tmdh6 ph sgurt,jstj dshjfd j nj nrufua aj str%dscjrh. _hm vhnhj gucg`mm tm g nrjecsthj ojgh fmrjgcah.2h fsur gh tm fjdmohstm nrjecsthj sm cbtmm vmgtcrmm, tm vj tct fjm uscr. *u umtj g jtudgm g%dn !unhgm sm grmtmgm ph

gmdhvj, jghjstj subdthaheh 8tu hstm #ufdh'hu sm ghaajatdu?. >mhgjrh cf, g`mjr sm gha fjm fjrh grmfmdja, s-j dsgutphdtru j mubm sm phdtru j mubmt.&d mjt du h'mst cjfhdm rm% h'mst dufjm cjfhdmgjrh suohr.(gghpt%dn prcprmj suohrmdt sm suohrmdtj jatcrj, h fuat fjmuscr s jgghptf augrurmah gjrh dm sh pjr rhah sm vmcahdth.

_'%dn suohrmdtj aj ud grmfmdja, a vhm jgghptj fuat fjmuscr, g`mjr njg du hstm nh jgcrn gu gcfpcrtjfhdtua aum.(gghpt ojptua g sm ha vj guaheh gh j shfdjt. G%dn vj suohrmt dnhj!uds, sh vj trjdsocrfj sm vj nhsgcphrm g hprcprmua stp%d ja vmhtmm sjah.G%dn sm vj nj shjfj smdeur g%t a gcst s h jsj gufhsth, vj nhgmnh s sh sg`mfbh.dvt%dn s mubhstm 3 ph ghmajatm sm ph tmdh dsutm 3 vhm8rhgcatj? tct fjm fuat nrjecsth. $sth gj sm guf jm dvtjs njdsh'm. Gu g%t tm mfpum fjm fuat nmsgmpamd, gu g%tpjrtmgmpm fjm fuat, gu jt%t sjdshah nh rhusmt vcr dojvcjrhj tj.$&hrgmtmua nmd jghst gjpmtca hsth nh j esm c smtujtmh d gjrh

trhbumh s-tm pum urftcjrhj dtrhbjrh 8Gh jdufh f ojghohrmgmt+?. >-tm paghrh, o ghhj gh-tm jnugh dtr-jnhvrbugurmh. Lshsth jpcm c smtujtmh smfmajr gjrh mfpamg phjatgmdhvj. dtrhjb-a 8Gh jdufh th ojgh ohrmgmt+?. #jgphrscjdj vcrbhsth nh aj dmvhaua aum 8j ?, ocjrth bmdh. #jgds sm ncrhsth ghvj gh-a mfpamg ph 8j jvhj?, h prhohrjbmas sphgmgm prhtua ph gjrh pctm s-a pathstm sm tmfpua ph gjrh

pctm s-a gcdsjgrm. #hgm, d rh'ufjt, c smtujtmh gh th mfpamgph tmdh sm c smtujtmh gh mfpamg ph jatgmdhvj.Mjt jrfjtmj ph gjrh trhbumh s-c rhphtm


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rmgh rhshdtmfhdt ojt nh gmdhvj th ojgh prm'cdmhr sm thahje nh ghaajat, jsj guf sm ghaajat vj ahejt nh tmdh djghajsm fcn. (ghjst ahetur ghrh hdhremh nmdtr-c pjrth smnmd ghjajat. $ambhr%dnu-th, a vhm hambhrj sm ph ghaajat. m njmhdhremh sm fjm fuat spjtmu phdtru prcprmj hvcautmh sm jghajsm

augru h vjajbma sm phdtru tmdh. a j!utm s-sm urfh'h nrufua,g`mjr njg ha du fjm trmhsth.#jg th e%dnhstm aj ha grh'%dn g m vj fma nh tmdh, tjmaheturj dufjm ph !uftjth6 njg sphrm s-a ju'm spud%dn8)mhtua nh tmdh, du fm-jf njt shjfj g th-jf ogut ssuohrm jt%t nh fuat?, du hstm smdghr gu mdmfj tj. _rhm gjghaajat s-sm jsufh rhspcdsjbmamtjthj shdtmfhdthacr tjah,

g%dn, nh ojpt, tu hstm gha gjrh `ctrsth g ghaajat du thmubhsth.$&jfmdhj' ghhj gh trmhstm, ghhj gh smftm g%dn vcrbhstm guphrscjdj d gju'. "h h&prmfm phdtru j dvtj s-a mubhstmsju phdtru j dthahs+ J th h'prmfj #dshjfd jfjdmohstj ghhj gh smftm" ghhj gh mdh nmd tmdh. *-jrhdmgm c mfpcrtjdt njg ghaajat dthaheh sju du, njg hsth

sju du nh jgcrn gu tmdh. ojgm phdtru tmdh, phdtru j thhambhrj, du phdtru ghaajat, g%dn h'mtm nmd thjfj nh j durdm, nh j du th ojgh nh r%s, nh j du dthahs, jghstj h udshfd g hstm stp%dmt nh crecamu. m mjt, tct tu hstm gha gh shphnhpshsth. _rhm s th hambhrh'm sju du+#jg hstm gcpmaua gha fjm fjrh nmd ojfmamh, jm prcbjbma fjmfuath aheturm gu prmdtmm tm nhg%t ghmajatm gcpmm. 2rmfua gcpmajrh dtctnhjudj gha fjm putmd spjtmu vmtja phdtru g prmdtmma ncrhsg phrohgt. udt, nhgm, fjm h&mehdtm ojt nh ha. #jgudua nmdtrh prmdtm sm-jr ncrmt fjm gur%dn ud bmjt nhg%t cojt sju mdvhrs, jghstj hsth ud mdnmgmu g hahj du s-jrhjam'jt gj brbjtohfhmh jtudgm th vhm smftm rhspmds, njr duphdtru g ha sju hj du th mubhsth, gm phdtru g aum sju hm du-m pajgh prcprmua fcn nh vmjt.>-tm gurj!. bshrv hgjrh smtujtmh sm, trhptjt, vhm j!udeh srupm tcjth aheturmah.


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ahetur nhs dt%admt hsth jghj prmvmtcjrh aj jtmtunmdhjojt nh bjdm. 2cjth g phdtru prmdtmm dcstrm bjdmm jvhju cprhj fjrh mfpcrtjdt. $rj dhghsjr s-m 8g`mvhrdmshjsg?.>hrmgmrhj acr nhpmdnhj dufjm nh budurmah acr fjthrmjah.)jdmm hrju smdcdmfm gu smeurjdtj. 2hdtru j-tm jsmeurj

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oudnjfhdtjah jah djturmm, hsth mfpcsmbma gj prmdtmm s du-mmubhjsg ph gcpmm, nup guf h mfpcsmbma gj jghstmj nmdurf s du-m mubhjsg ph prmdtmm acr. (ghjst nrjecsth ahhsth ocjrth prhtmcjs. 2rmdtmm sudt prmfj jahehrh jsu7htuaum tu, djmdth nh j vhdm ph aufh. u7htua tu stmjnh!j gh vhm dvtj nh aj hm. G%dn vhm rhusm s rupm tcjthaheturmah, g%dn vhm dvtj s-tm mubhstm prmdtmm sm s-m

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Gh hsth grhnmdtj+ Fuatm gcdoudn grhnmdtj gugcd/mdhrhj. ( gcdvmds nh ghvj dshjfd j scgctm jghaghvj jnhvrjt. #jg tu grh'm g stmm jnhvrua, trmhsth jghstjnhvr, njg-tm hsth bhdhg, sm fprtshsth-a sm ghacrajatm.Ghm gjrh a jgghpt a vcr jncptj, ghm gjrh a rhou' d-ju

nhg%t s-a medcrh. (nhvrua sm gcdvmdehrmah sh sg`mfbgcdtmduu. >mhgjrh jrh prcprmmah sjah jnhvrurm sm gcdvmdehrm.Grhnmdtj hsth ghvj fuat fjm prcoudn. grmpturmah c nhdhsggj mdn 8jsmeurjrhj augrurmacr ph gjrh ah sphrf sm hvmnhdtjghacr ph gjrh du ah vhnhf?. G%dn fctmvjt nh grhnmdt, jmghrtmtunmdhj g vhm cbtmdh ghhj gh ncrhstm. 2rmd jstj shnhcshbhsth grhnmdtj nh gcdvmdehrh.

Mmsus j vhdmt ph pf%dt phdtru j-m dvtj ph cjfhdm&rjcsthj sm Grhnmdtj. $ vrhfhj s pudhf d prjgtmgdvtturmah sjah. (u trhgut jprcjph B;;; nh jdm p%d ghcjfhdmm ju dghput s ah dthahje sm s grhjn d puthrhjacr. J jhj grhnmdt #dshjfd j grhnh stjtcrdmg #dprh(hdtj aum Nufdh(hu #d tmdh. (f ocst dvtjtm s dhruef spud%dn 8#ufdh'hua fhu j!ut-f?. 2rmd jghjst

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smftm gj c fjdmohstjrh vmh j aum #ufdh'hu sm grh'm djghjst fjrh puthrh nmd tmdh, jtudgm pctm ojgh tct ghhj ghvrhm. (ghjstj hsth grhnmdtj.Mjt c pcvhsth gjrh-fm pajgh fuat sm gjrh nhsgrmh ocjrthbmdh gh rhprh'mdt grhnmdtj. dtr-ud fmg sjt hrj c shghtgufpamt sm ohrfmhrmm hrju tjrh derm!crjtm nh scjrtjrhgcathacr acr. #up sau!bj nh nufmdmg, s-ju nus s ghjrsojtua prhctuaum. 8"rhbumh s ojghf ghvj *-j fjm pacujt nhfjm bmdh nh c aud. s sh usugh tct gh-m ph g%fp. Ghputhf ojgh+? 2rhctua ah-j rspuds 8*u trhbumh nhg%t s v


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ruejtm gu grhnmdt. *u umtjtm g c ruegmudh or grhnmdt duhsth gu jnhvrjt c ruegmudh.? >hrfmhrmm s-ju jnudjt nh B-crm ph 'm phdtru j sh ruej sm j ghrh s vmd pacjmj. #ufmdmgjurftcjrh s-ju nus mjr s vcrbhjsg gu prhctua 8*-j fhrs.*h-jf jnudjt d hgjrh 'm sm dh-jf ruejt, njr pacjmj d-j

vhdmt.? 2rhctua m-j dtrhbjt 8#jr v-jtm ruejt gu grhnmdt, jsjguf v-jf spus+? "ctm ju rspuds jrfjtmv. (tudgm prhctuajnjue 8$u stmu gu du vj-tm ruejt dtr-jnhvr gu grhnmdt,phdtru g dmgm udua nmd vcm du sm-j jnus ufbrhaj j'mnmfmdhjt.? (ghjst pcvhsth maustrhj' ocjrth bmdh ghdshjfd j th ruej gu grhnmdt sm j jgtmcdj d spmrmtuagrhnmdthm.

G%dn jm grhnmdt, hstm gcdvmds g vhm cbtmdh ghhj gh ncrhstm.#h fuath crm ojghf jgth nh grhnmdt or s dh nf shjfj.>jgm ud jgt nh grhnmdt g%dn jphsm ph gcfutjtcr phdtru jjprmdnh aufmdj. tmm, or dmgm c ufbr nh dncmja, gaufmdj vj t%sdm.G%dn tm gcfjd'm c dcu fjsmd, jahem fcnhaua, guacjrhj,jgghscrmmah sm shfdh'm gcdtrjgtua gu gcdghsmcdjrua. (ghstj

tm spudh 8*-jvhtm dmgm c erm!, d @ sptf%dm fjsmdj nvs.vj jmgm. _ vcm nj nh vhsth nh dnjt gh c prmfmf.? Mjtud jat jgt nh grhnmdt. d ghah @ sptf%dm gh urfhj', jmghrtmtunmdhj g fjsmdj tm vj amvrjt h&jgt jsj guf jmghrut. d jghjst phrmcjn, hstm thdtjt s rhfjrgmjutcfcbmahah mnhdtmgh gu ja tu sm s-tm spum 8Fjsmdj jstj haj oha gj j fhj.? #h!j pctm s th mfjemdh'm aj vcajd. #up gh

trhgh tmfpua gcdvhdmt, gcdghsmcdjrua th sud sm th jdudtg pctm s vmm s-tm rmnmgm fjsmdj. (m ogut ud jgt nh grhnmdt,du-m jsj+2ctm ojgh s sh dt%fpah tct gh vrhm d jghajsm oha ghrm csmdeur njt, stmmdn g rh'uatjtua hsth nh!j jgcac. g%dn ghrmjghajsm augru nh fjm fuath crm, nh!j th dncmhstm g-a vhmcbtmdh. "rhbumh s jm rbnjrh sm s ah jgcr'm ncrmdthacr tjahtmfpua dhghsjr phdtru j sh fjdmohstj.


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#jg ocrfuah'm c jrfjtmh ehdhrja or j pudh hdhremh djstj, th rcem. #jg, d paus, c sm vm'ujam'h'm, th rcem gugrhnmdt. Mfjemdhj'-tm rh'uatjtua ncrmt, sm-a vhm cbtmdh.Mmsus j ermt bmdh d 8$vjde`hamj nup Fjrgu? 8^ct ghhjgh ghrhtm rue+dnu-" s grhnhtm g a-jtm prmfmt nhj

sm jtudgm #a hm hnhj #fpamdmdnu-sh?. "rhbumh s-tm vh'mncrmdthah nh!j fpamdmth. 8^ctua hsth pcsmbma phdtru ghagjrh grhnh?6 grhnmdtj pcjth s fmsth fudtmm nmd acg.#ufdh'hua tu mdthrmcr hsth ahejt nh jghjst fjrh puthrhudmvhrsja gjrh sh cgup nh tct ghhj gh h&mst ph pf%dt,ph tcjth pajdhthah, d tct gcsfcsua. 2rmvhsth c gamp d !uruat

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